Showing posts with label bitter. Show all posts
Showing posts with label bitter. Show all posts

Monday, July 30, 2012

When God is Silent, teaching from camp

Happy Monday!
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A week ago this very hour, I was standing before a room of 70+ youth girls. God had spoken to me a good word to share with them: When God is Silent. A friend asked me to share my notes and so, here they are.
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When God is Silent
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Opening Exercise:
Ask the girls to close their eyes and not open them till I tell them to. Both the girls and myself are not to speak at all. Do not tell them for how long they will sit in silence.
Once I have them open their eyes, point out:
* Though there was silent, I was still present // Though there is silence from above, God is still present
* Though I was silent, I was still at work // Though God is silent, He is still at work on their behalf
* I wasn't silent because I was upset at them // God is not silent because He is upset at them
* My love for them didn't change because of my silence // God's love for them is unchanging
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Key Verses:
* Psalm 42:1-3 As the deer pants for streams of water, so my soul pants for you, O God. My soul thirsts for God, for the living God. When can I go and meet with God? My tears have been my food day and night, while men say to me all day long, “Where is your God?” 
Psalm 13:1 How long, O Lord? Will you forget me forever? How long will you hide your face from me?
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Personal Experience: 
Briefly share these experiences.
* Four years ago I felt like the Psalmist, abandoned by the Lord
* Brokenhearted by the betrayal of a friend
* Felt useless when I was taken out of ministries
* Felt like a failure as I applied for many jobs and not one company called me back
* I continued to seek the Lord to heal my depression, but He remained silent 
Doubt became fear 
* I grew faithless 
I was angry, confused, bitter
* As I compared by life to others, I complained to God about mine
* Pity parties 
* Hopeless I fell down on my face into God's word
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It was through the reading of God's Word that I learned on my own the lessons I am about to teach you. 
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1. Recognize the ways God speaks 
Remind the girls to simply listen and take notes of all scripture references
  1. Creation - Psalm 19:1-3 // ex: Rainbow covenant
  2. Audibly - Genesis 2 // ex: God spoke to Adam 
  3. Miracles & Signs - Hebrews 2:3-4 // ex: Right (God parting the red sea for the people of Israel is him speaking for them to continue). Wrong (If he wears a green shirt he is my future husband). 
  4. Bible - 2 Timothy 3:16 // self explanatory
  5. Circumstance - Ruth 1-4 // Through our trials He speaks comfort, provision and faithfulness
  6. Prophet - Deuteronomy 18:18 // a messenger
  7. Judgement - Romans 6:23 // His judgement speaks of His jealous love for us
  8. Without Words - Luke 12:10-12 // Through the Holy Spirit
  9. His Word Incarnate: Jesus - John 1:1-5 // The most important of all! 
2. When is God Silent?
This is not a checklist, so do not self diagnose God's silence. Seek Him. 
  1. He is giving us space to make a decision // ex: Meli had to choose between school or a job (both good but the choice was hers)
  2. He isn't ready to speak 
  3. He has already spoken
  4. He is testing us - 2 Chronicles 32:31b // He tests us not to cause us to fail but to perfect our faith
  5. He knows we won't listen // Usually when we are rebellious and in disobedience (He's a gentleman and though He pursues, He won't impose Himself on us.)
  6. Something or Someone is hindering our listening // Learn to recognize His voice
3. How NOT to respond when God is Silent
  1. Do not doubt God or His Word - James 1:5-8 // Our limited knowledge and worldly wisdom will be as the waves tossed and driven by the wind. We are unstable when we doubt. Continue seeking God's Word and godly council/prayer. 
  2. Do not live by sight - 2 Corinthians 5:7 // The opposite of faith is sight. "God, because I do not trust you I live by sight." -Bob Coy
  3. Do not become angry - Proverbs 25:28 // When we give in to anger, we are driven by emotions and lose self control/discipline. We become broken down walls, causing us to be vulnerable and defenseless to spiritual attacks.
  4. Do not complain - Exodus 16 // The people of Israel could have entered the promise land. It wasn't fear of the giants that kept them from entering, it was their complaining. They wandered for forty years because they complained constantly. They compared their misery to their slavery days. Greatest pity party in history: They longed for onions! YUCK! When we complain, we keep ourselves from the "promise land" and a perfected faith. We then become wanderers. 
4. How to respond when God is Silent
  1. View His last order(s) as standing orders // Whatever He told you to do last, continue doing that
  2. Remember past victories/promises of God and rest your faith in that 
  3. Long for the Lord as David did in Psalm 42, don't let the passion/zeal die 
  4. Recognize that silence can be an intimate place with God
  5. Keep talking to God
5. When was God silent in the Bible
  1. Job suffered many horrific troubles. Chapters 1-37 God is silent, He finally speaks in chapter 38. That's a lot of time! 
  2. David's life, through the Psalms, we read Him crying out for God to speak and work on his behalf. His enemies even mocked Him because God was silent. We also that God never left His side. 
  3. Hannah prayed for a child and God's silence was reflected in her barrenness. God opens and closes the womb in scripture. He speaks as Hannah and Elkanah conceive Samuel the Prophet. 
  4. When Mary and Martha called fro Jesus to heal their brother Lazarus who was sick. Jesus didn't move for two days, by then Lazarus was dead. They may have felt neglected. When they all thought all was lost, Jesus spoke, "Lazarus, come forth." Lazarus, still wrapped in burial wraps came back to life. 
  5. The woman caught in the very act of adultery, stood before a crowd ready to stone her to death for her sin. Jesus, the only one who could have rightfully judged and condemned her, was silent as He wrote on the floor. There in the presence of Jesus' silence, as she waited to die, all her accusers left, one by one. And then He spoke, "Go, and sin no more."
  6. From the last word in the book of Malachi to the first word spoken in the book of Matthew, God was silent. That is 400 years, making that the longest period of time that God was silent. Imagine living your entire existence without ever hearing from God. The time of greatest silence was needed in order for God to do His greatest work. He became man and died the worst death, that today we would be able to live. 
Close: 
* Silence can be likened to being stranded in a desert. 
* "The desert is fertile ground for our spiritual transformation and for God's grace to be revealed in magnificent ways." -Bianca Juarez 
* Every season of our lives is to be accepted as a gift from God. Even the seasons of silence.
Embrace this season.

Invitation: 
* Hosea 6:1-3, "Come, let us return to the LordHe has torn us to pieces; now he will heal us. He has injured us; now he will bandage our wounds. In just a short time he will restore us, so that we may live in his presence. Oh, that we might know the LordLet us press on to know him. He will respond to us as surely as the arrival of dawn or the coming of rains in early spring.” 

  • The rains in early spring was extremely important. If it did not rain in the spring, the land would not bear fruit that would sustain them in the seasons of drought and winter. 
  • God promises that when we pursue Him, He will be to us the dew of Israel, watering (the Holy Spirit work through the application of His Word) our lives so that we can bear much fruit and yes, even faith for the seasons of silence.
*Hosea 10:12, "Plant the good seeds of righteousness, and you will harvest a crop of love. Break up the fallow and hard ground of your hearts, for now is the time to seek the Lordthat He may come and shower righteousness upon you.
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There you have it. I pray that Lord may have spoken to you, as He spoke to me these lessons. If you need prayer, shoot me an email [livingasalily@gmail.com]. May the Lord guard your heart and mind as you seek Him in the silence.


Last week at Uth Camp as the girls sat in silence. 

Friday, June 22, 2012

Lyrical Friday & His healing, my healing

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Happy Friday to You. 
This week has been one massive roller coaster of emotions. As I mentioned last Friday, my paternal grandmother passed away. This happened in the Dominican Republic, therefore, my parents traveled for the funeral and burial. While there my Mother began to experience great pain on the upper right side of her face. She thought it was her sinus kicking in but the pain did not go away with medication. She was admitted to a local hospital where all sorts of tests and scans were performed on her. Stroke, Bells Palsy and any brain related illness was discarded and all pointed to her right eye. This all happened this past Monday. 
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Come Tuesday morning she was seen by an Opthamologist who diagnosed a Glaucoma attack on her right eye. Glaucoma was also detected on her left eye. She was flown back and given a 12 hour span before she could possibly lose her sight. Since then she has undergone three laser procedures, 2 on her right eye and 1 on her left. Holes were drilled into her eyes to drain out the fluid being retained. As of now, her vision has not been restored and only time will tell if she will recover it in her right eye. The left eye was treated and is safe. We are clinging to Jesus, our Jehovah-Rohpe. And though the pit is dark, deep and unforgiving our hope is in God. My precious Mother is found on her knees but she is not alone, I am found there too and many praying saints. 
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Then Moses led Israel onward from the Red Sea and they went into the Wilderness of Shur; they went three days in the wilderness and found no water. When they came to Marah, they could not drink its waters for they were bitter; therefore it was named Marah [bitterness]. The people murmured against Moses, saying, What shall we drink? And he cried to the Lord, and the Lord showed him a tree which he cast into the waters, and the waters were made sweet. There [the Lord] made for them a statute and an ordinance, and there He proved them, saying, If you will diligently hearken to the voice of the Lord your God and will do what is right in His sight, and will listen to and obey His commandments and keep all His statutes, I will put none of the diseases upon you which I brought upon the Egyptians, for I am the Lord Who heals you. Exodus 15:22-26
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O Lord my God, I cried to you for help,
and you restored my health. 
You brought me up from the grave, O Lord
You kept me from falling into the pit of death. 
Sing to the Lord, all you godly ones! 
Praise his holy name. 
For his anger lasts only a moment, 
but his favor lasts a lifetime! 
Weeping may last through the night, 
but joy comes with the morning.
Psalm 30:2-5
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The LORD nurses them when they are sick and restores them to health. Psalm 41:3 
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My health may fail, and my spirit may grow weak, 
but God remains the strength of my heart; he is mine forever. Psalm 73:26 
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Let all that I am praise the Lord;
may I never forget the good things he does for me. 
He forgives all my sins and heals all my diseases. 
He redeems me from death 
and crowns me with love and tender mercies. 
He fills my life with good things. 
My youth is renewed like the eagle’s! 
Psalm 103:2-5
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Don’t be impressed with your own wisdom. 
Instead, fear the Lord and turn away from evil. 
Then you will have healing for your body 
and strength for your bones. Proverbs 7:7-8
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When my heart is overwhelmed; lead me to the rock that is higher than I. Psalm 61:2
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May He heal your broken heart and bind your wounds.
May He heal your bones and restore your health.
May He heal your mind from the past.
May He heal the scars from cutting yourself.
May He heal your hunger and the eating dirsorder(s).
Praying for your healing.

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Find You On My Knees, Kari Jobe 

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Troubles chasing me again,
Breaking down my best defence,
I'm looking, God, I'm looking for you
Weary just won't let me rest and fear is filling up my head.
I'm longing, God I'm longing for you
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But I will find you in the place I'm in, find you when I'm at my end,
Find you when there's nothing left of me to offer you except for brokenness.
You lift me up, you'll never leave me thirsty,
When I am weak, when I am lost and searching
I'll find you on my knees.
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So what if sorrow shakes my faith,
What if heartache still remains,
I'll trust you, my god I'll trust you.
'Cause You are faithful and
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When my hope is gone, when the fear is strong
When the pain is real, when it's hard to heal
When my faith is shaken and my heart is broken and my joy is stolen, 
God I know that You lift me up, you'll never leave me thirsty,


Tuesday, August 2, 2011

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